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This morning I read that blessing means: Let it go. If I bless someone I let him go into the hands of god. Now I know: THAT'S FREEDOM! I know why I have freedom and peace in my situation, yet. When I had to choice to let someone go his way I blessed this person in all my pray. So I put gods way above my will. That was the best I could do for this person. I didn't manipulate and obligate. Thanks to god that he wrote this in my heart. Pray, bless and praise. He bless this. I have freedom and peace in my heart. The friendship was upgraded to another level. Now it's easy. Not complicated as before it was. And it was really heavy - but I didn't want it.


Hey god, you're awesome! You're the best what happened in my life! I only can sing, pray and dance of the greatness of your name!

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Since I said that I do not want a girlfriend until a year is over I made some steps which are very good for me. I told god, that the relationship between me and him is very important for me and I will use this time to work on it. That's the cause' I don't want a girlfriend for this time. And God's still working on it. Often I walk small steps. But sometimes the steps I walk are heavy and I realize that my character is movin' 180 degrees. Here an overview: the first time God cut the way in lessons. The transitions were floating.

The first thing was importunateness. He showed me what I did wrong and where are the stones on my way I fell. I looked for a mentor. I want to put things out of my way and my life. I don't get one mentor - I get 2. They build a team. It was beyond my imagination. But it's very good.

The next lesson was "freedom". What does freedom mean? What is freedom? I found out freedom is not free of boundaries.

The next step was to trust in god. He gave me the serenity to leave things behind me and to let s.o. go. I had to learn this. I learned to get gifts and to give them back into god's hand. I was free to be glad about this and to pray him for this what he did. Shortly: I learned to love god and to give him praise. Every day.

So I can say: god is really powerful! I don't want to explain details but he shows me that I get s.th back when I invest myself in god - to trust in god. He shows me his love every day.

At last one thing: That I do not want a girlfriend since 1 year is over is not because I do not want a girlfriend - it's a homage to god. I want that he controls my life and so I gave him the possibility to do this in this section of my life when I say: I do not pay any attention on it. So this is not limited to a year. My opinion is that I want that god do s.th. at this point of time which he has chosen at the right point of time. He will lead.

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Saturday we made BBQ at the Isar in Munich. We were not alone... You can see it at the pictures. but it was very funny. We filled a plastic bowl with stones and made a flambeau with a stick and the wax from a candle. You can keep girls busy for hours with that *smile* More pictures you can find at Ani's blogposting...

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It is so amazing!

I have a friend. The friendship was very easy. Not complicated and without any worries. I met her often at the weekend with other friends and her sister. We played games and talked. It was very amazing. I feeled comfortable about the friendship.

One day I told to god, that I give him the next year. I don't want a girl friend at this time. I want to concentrate me to relationship between me an god. I don't want to have stress or troubles in the relationship between me and god. I want to take it easily.

Later, the person asked me, if we meet us to often and what I mean. After that I was thinking about the situation and if we meet us rarely.

At one time when I phoned with her, I've got the point: I have it given to god, I don't must thinking. I don't have to pay attention to the thing: What do I think, what do she think, to do she feel or what do I feel. I gave it god. I gave him the year so I don't have to pay attention to the relationship with god. This makes free! That's the really freedom! It is so amazing, 'caus I don't must thinking. When I meet her, it's OK, when I don't meet her, it's OK. I'm free to say: Today we meet us and play games and talking and the other day I don't meet me with her. So I'm not a slave. And this is so amazing. :D

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Here some pictures :)

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Oh God, You are my God

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